Desperation
Posted by Intuition Girl
Dear Joan Marie,
We spoke for a half hour back in February. I contacted you out of a certain desperation. I hated my life, and hated my situation. You said you saw a relationship for me very soon, and in fact when the weather turned warm, saying spring or summer. It’s freezing outside and I am still single and very lonely. I have been on some unremarkable dates with people who turned out to be dull and ultimately unbearable, so it’s not like I’m not ‘putting myself out there.’ I am; there’s just no one to put myself out there *for*. I have been laid off from two jobs and can’t find another one. I apply and apply everyday and nothing. I can’t pay my rent or bills.
My life is terrible and hurtful. It’s gotten far worse. It’s nothing but suffering, loss, agony, or at best, boredom and meaninglessness. I try really hard and think positive but nothing ever changes. 3 years ago my father died and the love of my life left me for someone else. I am almost 30 and feel like my dreams have passed me by. The point is, I am not ‘being negative’ and I am not ‘holding myself back’. I am absolutely positive in every way I can be, I visualize, meditate, imagine, journal, read self help books, and do EVERYTHING I’m supposed to, but there are no opportunities and no men. I wonder if you can tell me something, ANYTHING positive will happen soon. I don’t need to be told to think positively or to look at things in a different way. I already know all that.
I need assurance that something good will happen to me soon-and not some cheesy self-help thing like I’ll think positive. I already know all that. I already do all that. I already love myself and am working on my goals. But that’s only the first half. Thesecond half is to have something and someone on the other side. I mean an external event that occurs and gives me money or love (another person, not just self love) please advise.
Thanks.
Marie Krueger
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